The New Beginning

Time passes by..a new chapter has begun..now I'm officially a wife..at first i thought it was easy ..but getting used to being a wife is not as easy as it seems..now i have new responsibilities..cleaning

the house..pay the bills..cook..sigh! do the laundry..ironing..lots!!!! more!!! but it was fun..sometimes..hahaha..sometimes you're just so tired..you just want to be by yourself..but there's no chance for it to happen..but I've learned that communication with your partner is VERY important! All you have to do is tell...there's nothing to be afraid of..its for our own good! rite?! We had our fights..but we manage to work things out..

Six months later..i was pregnant..it was the best day ever when i first tested positive..Fairuz was the happiest person ever..told the news to Mum and Gja...and they were soooo excited! They came to congratulate me..the next day i when for the check up and did the ultrasound..my baby was still very tiny and was about 2 weeks...no wonder i was having very bad stomachache..hahaha..first 3 months was very bad..my morning sickness struck not only in the morning but stretches out till midnight!! Eiu! i can still remember how i hate the smell of Apples..!! Yuks! I can't even stand the smell of my own house..we had to stay at Mummy's for a while..i had to take off from work..My employers was not very cooperative..they called me up and told me that they are transferring me to some other dept that i was not interested in..so i decided to quit! i was back to normal after the first trimester..i ate a lot and gained weight.. can you imagine..from 42kg i gained to 60kg?? and i was only 4months pregnant! hahaha!! i enjoyed my food..i didnt crave for weird stuff..but i craved for expensive foods..hehehe..lucky for me dad brought me to the places i wanted to eat..but there was one time i really wanted to have 'ICED JELLY' and i only want the one in JB!! hahaha!! somehow Fairuz had to go to JB for an event that his company was doing...And i managed to follow and stayed at Azra's..she had bring me to get my ICED JELLY...thats when azra told me that she's late for her menses!! she already bought the tester but was scared to test it..so i forced he to do the test..and guess what!??? SHE'S PREGNANT!!!! yeAHhh!! i was so happy for her...we celebrated the excitement! Stayed there for 2 days and came back to KL..The pregnancy was fun..sometimes i'm worried that would i be a good mother?? can i go through the labor pain..everything!! I was very sensitive..but i love to go window shopping..fairuz was a bit busy..he had to work for me and prepare for the newcomer..mum thought my baby was a girl and she even bought a cute little shirt and hot pants! but we did th ultrasound again and the doctor confirm it was a BOY!! Yeah! we started shopping for him..we bought his crib,pushchair and etc. Mum bought the toiletries and so many more..dad gave cash for me to prepare all the important stuff for the baby and myself too..they were very excited!!

8th July 2008, 10.45pm as i was going to the bathroom my waterbag bursT!! Everybody panicked..it was so funny..especially my Fairuz..hehe..i was rushed to hospital..i didnt feel any contraction..as we arrive at the hospital..they put me in the labor room and i need to be induced..i was in labor for only 6 hours..the doctors was surprised that the baby wanted to come out early..it was normal delivery..i didnt take any painkiller. and i manage to give birth without epidural.. at exacly 6.41am Muhammad Rafael Faliq was born.

Muhammad Rafael Faliq B. Muhammad Fairuz

A Wonderful Life

Everything changed when i met the love of my life..how we met was unplanned and funny..i was accompanying my buddies Tini & Yat for a job interview and decided to fill in the form too..we were hired..and what a small world it is..the person who interviewed me was mummy's friend..Kamal..somehow..something didnt worked out well..and he decided to take me n my buddies for dinner..we agreed..he came to pick us up with his friend Muhammad Fairuz Razak and again what a small world it is..his friend was a friend of my friend..but we've never hang out together or even talk to each other..we had dinner in Hartamas..n went to Nouvo..Thats when me and Fairuz get to know each other and exchange nos..The relationship grew and we fell in love with each other..we meet up almost everyday..our friends was shock when they found out that we;re together..

Everything was soo great..and after 5 years in relationship..we've decided to get married..never in my mind i would imagine that i would go thru this nightmare..it was too painful for me to tell..its better to keep it to myself..not too long after the 'nightmare' we're married..the wedding was beautiful..dad did the ijab kabul and mum organized the reception..its not an ordinary traditional wedding..it her very own idea and concept..it was beautiful..BEBE did the hantaran from Fairuz to me..and it was So GRAND!! Mama did my hantaran and its was AWESOME!! I loved it!! The wedding was simple yet its so memorable!

Few month later, another nightmare hit me as i received the news about my Daddy had a heart attack right after i left his house..i nearly fainted and couldnt accept it! i broke down and rushed to the hospital!! that night he was stabil and had to be transferred to HUKM for futher treatment..i stayed up all night just to be sure that he'll be ok..came back the next morning..again i broke down to tears as i saw my Father was in so much pain..n the doctors didnt do anything about it!! After all the complaints we did..the doctor came and took him for a test and he was transferred to ICU..he went through a other test and explained to us about his condition. I felt like my heart stop as the docs said that there is no cure for him..as long as he keeps his blood pressure stabil and stay healthy. i took turns to keep him company..nothing is more important to me other than my family..i'm not ready to loose him now..

At same time Feezah's wedding was planned earlier..the family wanted to postpone the wedding until daddy recovers..but..it is his wish to make sure feezah gets married..we did a simple wedding for her..attended by close family members..daddy watch from a video call which we arranged..the wedding went well happy but a bit sad cause the most important person is not around..Daddy! But the reception was done on Kamarul's Side..Feezah was beautiful and i'm so happy for her! She's been supportive to me in many ways..she understands me and has always been there for me..i can never be apart from her..and now we're happily married and she's my neighbour..hehehe!

An Exciting Adventure

Its been a while since i started writing again..the last time i remembered when i was in form 3..oh my..i'm OLD!! muahahahah!!! writing is the only way for us to express out feelings and share all the experience with others..here it goes....

Nuraainaa Diyana Bt Mohd Salleh

My First Burday!

My First Bike

I was born on August 9th 1982..Shahidah Mohd Hashim..my beloved mother, Mohd Salleh Zainal Abidin my wonderful father..they have been great parents to me..all through the time and year i've gone thru would never be a success if its not because of them..i'm so thankfull to Allah s.w.t to be born as their child..they've also gave me 2 beautiful sisters and a handsome brother Nurhafeezah Diyana,Nurkhaleilah Diyana & Mohd Firdaus Hafiz...they've filled my life with joy and excitement..My childhood was filled with fun fun fun..

Macho Dad

My Mummy

As time goes by..life has been so nice and wonderfull till the day my wonderful parents got divorced..at first i didnt know what it means but..arwah 'nenek' explained to me..for the first few days i was had no idea what it feels like about parents getting divorce..as i grew up..few years later i began to feel the impact of the fact that my parents being separated..not for a while but FOREVER!! i broke down and i cant face the fact that i have to deal with what has been written...i was hating them for what they have done..i became rebellious and angry..i ran away from home..got distractted at school and only GOD knows what i felt at that time..it took some time for me to accept all the changes about being away from my father and comforting my siblings and my mother..Daddy was everything..he gave us shelter and food and all the necessities..mummy provide us with all the love and support that we've needed..i was confused and had a hard time getting used to it..but being the eldest..i have to be strong and always think positive for the best of my other siblings..

Daddy's Angel

My One and Only Brother

Just as i was started to feel the comfort of the whole new situation..another test was given to me..that is to accept a new person in my life that is A STEPFATHER & A STEPMOTHER..at first i tried to accept it but nothing can ever replace your very own parents..no one!! When mummy told me she was getting married..i didnt agreed but who am i to tell whats best for her..when she decides to remarried i have no say to it then to welcome the new person in the family ..at the same time i also have to accept the new STEPMOTHER..at that time i knew there is no chance of my parents to be together again..accepting new people in the family wasnt easy for us even until today...we had to take care of each others heart and feelings..but somehow i wonder do they ever think of our feelings?? we had to organize our time for mummy and daddy equally..and believe me untill today we're just bad in that...cause life is short..we just want to spend all of our time with the one we love...But thru the years i've gone thru so many ups n downs..arguing with mummy and daddy..fighting..being away without calling..everything..at the end of the day everything will still remain the same..untill i was in form 5 i began to accept everything...



After school life was hectic..all i can think of was enjoying myself with friends..and lucky for me..i had good friend that took good care of me..love life..hahahaha..so many boyfriends!! Some end up with a bad fight some became friends till today..when thru a lot...tried so many new stuff..when to clubs..smoked cigarettes..weed ( twice only)..sneeked out daddy's car..when for parties..enjoyed everything..but i just cant understand kids nowdays..they are so different..i had all the fun during those days without hurting my parents badly..i know i do sometimes..but not as bad as they are now..sigh! Those days when i have plans at night..i'll make sure mummy knows with who i go out with and always updated..i also clean the house in the morning and make sure she;s happy and gives me the permission to go out..hahahha..bodek! but it works!! I just have to know my limits and never takes advantage of it..of course sometime i do..hihi..sorry ma! there was one time i had a fight with daddy..that was the first time i pushed him..it was my fault anyway..i drove the BMW without his permission..he throw away my very first handphone! hahaha..I regret it by doing that to him until today and i can never forgive myself..I"M SO SORRY DAD!! Guess i wasnt thinking at that moment..silly me! I love cars..fast cars..i fell in love with that car..the BMW..but dad sold the car..tak de rezqi..i know one day i'll get to own my dream car..My friends was into cars too..most of my friends are guys..my girlfriends are just Tinie & yati..during weekend we would gather and hang out together..it was fun then..got my driving licence..yeah!! the best day ever!! Went to college but didnt complete..took architecture course but i found out..it wasnt for me..continued studies in Olympia Business College..studied Secretarial course..met new friends..didnt finished the course either!! hehe..influenced by friends and i guess i'm not interested in studying..but had the basic..and a fast learner..
At this time of the year..its all about fun..i didnt work..but it was tough..but i've never blame it on anyone..i choose to be that way..