Its been a while since i started writing again..the last time i remembered when i was in form 3..oh my..i'm OLD!! muahahahah!!! writing is the only way for us to express out feelings and share all the experience with others..here it goes....
Nuraainaa Diyana Bt Mohd Salleh
My First Burday!
My First Bike
I was born on August 9th 1982..Shahidah Mohd Hashim..my beloved mother, Mohd Salleh Zainal Abidin my wonderful father..they have been great parents to me..all through the time and year i've gone thru would never be a success if its not because of them..i'm so thankfull to Allah s.w.t to be born as their child..they've also gave me 2 beautiful sisters and a handsome brother Nurhafeezah Diyana,Nurkhaleilah Diyana & Mohd Firdaus Hafiz...they've filled my life with joy and excitement..My childhood was filled with fun fun fun..
Macho Dad
My Mummy
As time goes by..life has been so nice and wonderfull till the day my wonderful parents got divorced..at first i didnt know what it means but..arwah 'nenek' explained to me..for the first few days i was had no idea what it feels like about parents getting divorce..as i grew up..few years later i began to feel the impact of the fact that my parents being separated..not for a while but FOREVER!! i broke down and i cant face the fact that i have to deal with what has been written...i was hating them for what they have done..i became rebellious and angry..i ran away from home..got distractted at school and only GOD knows what i felt at that time..it took some time for me to accept all the changes about being away from my father and comforting my siblings and my mother..Daddy was everything..he gave us shelter and food and all the necessities..mummy provide us with all the love and support that we've needed..i was confused and had a hard time getting used to it..but being the eldest..i have to be strong and always think positive for the best of my other siblings..
Daddy's Angel
My One and Only Brother
Just as i was started to feel the comfort of the whole new situation..another test was given to me..that is to accept a new person in my life that is A STEPFATHER & A STEPMOTHER..at first i tried to accept it but nothing can ever replace your very own parents..no one!! When mummy told me she was getting married..i didnt agreed but who am i to tell whats best for her..when she decides to remarried i have no say to it then to welcome the new person in the family ..at the same time i also have to accept the new STEPMOTHER..at that time i knew there is no chance of my parents to be together again..accepting new people in the family wasnt easy for us even until today...we had to take care of each others heart and feelings..but somehow i wonder do they ever think of our feelings?? we had to organize our time for mummy and daddy equally..and believe me untill today we're just bad in that...cause life is short..we just want to spend all of our time with the one we love...But thru the years i've gone thru so many ups n downs..arguing with mummy and daddy..fighting..being away without calling..everything..at the end of the day everything will still remain the same..untill i was in form 5 i began to accept everything...
After school life was hectic..all i can think of was enjoying myself with friends..and lucky for me..i had good friend that took good care of me..love life..hahahaha..so many boyfriends!! Some end up with a bad fight some became friends till today..when thru a lot...tried so many new stuff..when to clubs..smoked cigarettes..weed ( twice only)..sneeked out daddy's car..when for parties..enjoyed everything..but i just cant understand kids nowdays..they are so different..i had all the fun during those days without hurting my parents badly..i know i do sometimes..but not as bad as they are now..sigh! Those days when i have plans at night..i'll make sure mummy knows with who i go out with and always updated..i also clean the house in the morning and make sure she;s happy and gives me the permission to go out..hahahha..bodek! but it works!! I just have to know my limits and never takes advantage of it..of course sometime i do..hihi..sorry ma! there was one time i had a fight with daddy..that was the first time i pushed him..it was my fault anyway..i drove the BMW without his permission..he throw away my very first handphone! hahaha..I regret it by doing that to him until today and i can never forgive myself..I"M SO SORRY DAD!! Guess i wasnt thinking at that moment..silly me! I love cars..fast cars..i fell in love with that car..the BMW..but dad sold the car..tak de rezqi..i know one day i'll get to own my dream car..My friends was into cars too..most of my friends are guys..my girlfriends are just Tinie & yati..during weekend we would gather and hang out together..it was fun then..got my driving licence..yeah!! the best day ever!! Went to college but didnt complete..took architecture course but i found out..it wasnt for me..continued studies in Olympia Business College..studied Secretarial course..met new friends..didnt finished the course either!! hehe..influenced by friends and i guess i'm not interested in studying..but had the basic..and a fast learner..
At this time of the year..its all about fun..i didnt work..but it was tough..but i've never blame it on anyone..i choose to be that way..
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